I think there're pieces of me you've never seen

What an evening. I have seen two very different and wonderful women on the Chicago Theater stage in the past 2 weeks. Heather and I saw Ani DiFranco a few weeks ago and Wed. nite I saw Tori with my friend Becky from faire. Traffic was a bitch to get there...we arrived about 20 mins into Howie Day's performance. The ten minutes we actually saw were awesome though. He had all kinds of pedals around him that he used to set rhythms and vocal harmonies on a loop while he played other parts, which added up to a multilayered effect. I might have to download some of his stuff. He even came out after the show to sign autographs. You gotta love people that open to their audience. Tori took the stage with such energy and spirit, you couldn't help but feel the connection between her and the audience. She's been singing to live audiences for so long, she has it down to a science. Not to mention, the set list was made in heaven. She covered almost all of the b-sides and favorites of mine that I've always wanted to hear live. Here's the set list, incase anyone was wondering.

**************
Wampum Prayer
a sorta fairytale
Precious Things (oh. my. GOD. She even gave the mic a hand job during 'so you can make me cum that doesn't make you Jesus' line. )
Pancake
Take To The Sky*** (YESSSSS!!!)
((the following was posted by a toriphile. thank god they were writing this down))(Here she did some little mini song: First she said, "How's everyone doing on the eve of Thanksgiving?" Then goes into a song... I only caught part of the words: "Tomorrow when you're happy, don't think of this... When you're throwing stuffing... I'm lucky because I'm just the Bird in Pink." Very cute.)


Your Cloud
Black-Dove (January)
Crucify
Wednesday

Band leaves

Mother
(Another little impromptu song - Beautiful Lady? There was a gal who couldn't find her seat and was roaming the aisle, and Tori sings something like: "lovely lady, can't find her way, lovely lady there's a seat for everyone, even in this town, if you want to find your way, stick with me·" :)

Josephine
Jackie's Strength (yay!)

Band returns

Carnival (first time ever performed live!!)
Sweet Sangria
Cornflake Girl
Amber Waves
Juarez
I Can't See New York
Spring Haze

1st Encore
Taxi Ride
Honey

2nd Encore
Tear In Your Hand
Horses
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The audience was fairly well behaved. No one shouted during her singing or anything. There was, however, the strong smell of pot in the air. Actually, the 20-something guy next to me was taking tons of pictures (with an obnoxious flash), smoked a cigarette and got bitched out during the prep before Tori came on, and then, in the middle of the concert, whips out a joint and smokes it! Right next to me!!! At least he was quiet, I guess. Everyone around me was having a great time too. There was a blonde girl in the front row that was so into it that she periodically stood up to head bang. Tori giggled during Cornflake Girl at her. She made her miss a lyric in the middle....
I had a wonderful time, despite the nagging thought of how much I wished Hezzie and Liz was there with me, because there were a couple of your faves in there that I know you would have loved. I hopefully will find someone who recorded it so we can all bask in the glory of Tori. :)AND the best part is...I get to see her AGAIN in milwaukee on Sunday!!! I feel so lucky to be able to be doing this. I can't really afford it right now, but I have to for the sake of my sanity. Looking forward to things is the only thing that keeps me going.
Right now I'm at work, not a soul in sight because they're all out there amongst the craziness that is retail. no thank you.
I had fun decorating the christmas tree and putting up snowflakes all over the department.
I feel like shit though. I'm feeling guilty for staying at Randy's again. I stayed there after the concert and got home 10 minutes into Thanksgiving dinner. Dad's in a bad mood in the first place, but I can't help but feel like I'm contributing to his depression. He's frustrated with my decisions. At least I'm being honest about everything. I'm taking care of myself and nothing has happened. Randy and I had a talk before I left (which made me late getting home...) and we both agreed that we'd slow down and that we both really care about each other and won't dissapear any time soon. This may sound crazy, but I have this overwhelming fear of abandonment that needs to be taken care of. I'm still holding back and protecting myself from getting hurt, but I'm still being myself. I feel ok being myself. that is the most amazing part. He likes me for me and I don't have to pretend to be anything I'm not. (It's about damn time, don't you think????) Now if I could just get my family to accept this and not think any less of me, everything would be great.
And for those of you still reading, thanks. Love you guys so much.

I think there're pieces of me you've never seen

What an evening. I have seen two very different and wonderful women on the Chicago Theater stage in the past 2 weeks. Heather and I saw Ani DiFranco a few weeks ago and Wed. nite I saw Tori with my friend Becky from faire. Traffic was a bitch to get there...we arrived about 20 mins into Howie Day's performance. The ten minutes we actually saw were awesome though. He had all kinds of pedals around him that he used to set rhythms and vocal harmonies on a loop while he played other parts, which added up to a multilayered effect. I might have to download some of his stuff. He even came out after the show to sign autographs. You gotta love people that open to their audience. Tori took the stage with such energy and spirit, you couldn't help but feel the connection between her and the audience. She's been singing to live audiences for so long, she has it down to a science. Not to mention, the set list was made in heaven. She covered almost all of the b-sides and favorites of mine that I've always wanted to hear live. Here's the set list, incase anyone was wondering.

**************
Wampum Prayer
a sorta fairytale
Precious Things (oh. my. GOD. She even gave the mic a hand job during 'so you can make me cum that doesn't make you Jesus' line. )
Pancake
Take To The Sky*** (YESSSSS!!!)
((the following was posted by a toriphile. thank god they were writing this down))(Here she did some little mini song: First she said, "How's everyone doing on the eve of Thanksgiving?" Then goes into a song... I only caught part of the words: "Tomorrow when you're happy, don't think of this... When you're throwing stuffing... I'm lucky because I'm just the Bird in Pink." Very cute.)


Your Cloud
Black-Dove (January)
Crucify
Wednesday

Band leaves

Mother
(Another little impromptu song - Beautiful Lady? There was a gal who couldn't find her seat and was roaming the aisle, and Tori sings something like: "lovely lady, can't find her way, lovely lady there's a seat for everyone, even in this town, if you want to find your way, stick with me·" :)

Josephine
Jackie's Strength (yay!)

Band returns

Carnival (first time ever performed live!!)
Sweet Sangria
Cornflake Girl
Amber Waves
Juarez
I Can't See New York
Spring Haze

1st Encore
Taxi Ride
Honey

2nd Encore
Tear In Your Hand
Horses
**************

The audience was fairly well behaved. No one shouted during her singing or anything. There was, however, the strong smell of pot in the air. Actually, the 20-something guy next to me was taking tons of pictures (with an obnoxious flash), smoked a cigarette and got bitched out during the prep before Tori came on, and then, in the middle of the concert, whips out a joint and smokes it! Right next to me!!! At least he was quiet, I guess. Everyone around me was having a great time too. There was a blonde girl in the front row that was so into it that she periodically stood up to head bang. Tori giggled during Cornflake Girl at her. She made her miss a lyric in the middle....
I had a wonderful time, despite the nagging thought of how much I wished Hezzie and Liz was there with me, because there were a couple of your faves in there that I know you would have loved. I hopefully will find someone who recorded it so we can all bask in the glory of Tori. :)AND the best part is...I get to see her AGAIN in milwaukee on Sunday!!! I feel so lucky to be able to be doing this. I can't really afford it right now, but I have to for the sake of my sanity. Looking forward to things is the only thing that keeps me going.
Right now I'm at work, not a soul in sight because they're all out there amongst the craziness that is retail. no thank you.
I had fun decorating the christmas tree and putting up snowflakes all over the department.
I feel like shit though. I'm feeling guilty for staying at Randy's again. I stayed there after the concert and got home 10 minutes into Thanksgiving dinner. Dad's in a bad mood in the first place, but I can't help but feel like I'm contributing to his depression. He's frustrated with my decisions. At least I'm being honest about everything. I'm taking care of myself and nothing has happened. Randy and I had a talk before I left (which made me late getting home...) and we both agreed that we'd slow down and that we both really care about each other and won't dissapear any time soon. This may sound crazy, but I have this overwhelming fear of abandonment that needs to be taken care of. I'm still holding back and protecting myself from getting hurt, but I'm still being myself. I feel ok being myself. that is the most amazing part. He likes me for me and I don't have to pretend to be anything I'm not. (It's about damn time, don't you think????) Now if I could just get my family to accept this and not think any less of me, everything would be great.
And for those of you still reading, thanks. Love you guys so much.