2005-06-01

learning2fly: (givelifetori)
2005-06-01 11:55 pm

I wish...

You may know what you need

but to get what you want

better see that you keep what you have


I've had a recurring nightmare since I was about 10 in which I am trying with every ounce of my being to hold onto something, only to have it melt into water or vapor and slip through my fingers. Such a metaphor for how things are going right now.

I am both grateful and blessed for what I have been given and what I have achieved thus far...and at the same time feel like I'm drowning in other people's (and my own) expectations. I choose one thing, and I lose something else. I need balance. I want someone to hold me and tell me everything is going to be all right. I know it won't but I need to hear it anyway.

Blah blah blah...it's late and I'm being weird. Pay no heed to the crazy girl who needs sleep.
learning2fly: (givelifetori)
2005-06-01 11:55 pm

I wish...

You may know what you need

but to get what you want

better see that you keep what you have


I've had a recurring nightmare since I was about 10 in which I am trying with every ounce of my being to hold onto something, only to have it melt into water or vapor and slip through my fingers. Such a metaphor for how things are going right now.

I am both grateful and blessed for what I have been given and what I have achieved thus far...and at the same time feel like I'm drowning in other people's (and my own) expectations. I choose one thing, and I lose something else. I need balance. I want someone to hold me and tell me everything is going to be all right. I know it won't but I need to hear it anyway.

Blah blah blah...it's late and I'm being weird. Pay no heed to the crazy girl who needs sleep.