Even in a relationship there is aloneness. Sometimes I feel alone even though I know there are all these people that love me. Sometimes I think that there is no one there to help me along in my journey even though I know I could count on a few people. It's weird to feel alone with tons of people around you, but sometimes that's how I feel.
As for the self-hating, I go for self-deprecating. I will never be as beautiful as what the nation seems to think is beautiful. As a matter of fact only a handful of people fill that stereotype. Believe me when I say that everyone has a problem with their bodies. Goodness, just look at me. Do you know how hard it is to find a nice black corset for Rocky in my size. I can't, they don't make them that big. Not to mention all the clothes that are in my size seem to have a lot of extra room in the bust. Just because a girl is fat doesn't mean her boobs are huge (that's one thing I would make if I were a designer).
And I like to think of myself as an ace when it comes to self-deprecation. I guess I like making fun of myself, at the expense of those fortunate with thinner bodies. I mean after all, if the US were to have a famine, who would live, the skinny girls or the fat girls?
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Date: 2003-11-25 08:38 am (UTC)As for the self-hating, I go for self-deprecating. I will never be as beautiful as what the nation seems to think is beautiful. As a matter of fact only a handful of people fill that stereotype. Believe me when I say that everyone has a problem with their bodies. Goodness, just look at me. Do you know how hard it is to find a nice black corset for Rocky in my size. I can't, they don't make them that big. Not to mention all the clothes that are in my size seem to have a lot of extra room in the bust. Just because a girl is fat doesn't mean her boobs are huge (that's one thing I would make if I were a designer).
And I like to think of myself as an ace when it comes to self-deprecation. I guess I like making fun of myself, at the expense of those fortunate with thinner bodies. I mean after all, if the US were to have a famine, who would live, the skinny girls or the fat girls?