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Thanks for the hugs guys. I felt so alone at work lately and didn't have time to go cry in a corner like I so desperately needed. Hence the 'I need a hug' post. I'm feeling a bit better now. Not being around the people that got me to that point made things easier to handle. I don't really want to talk about it in detail. It's stupid. Let's just say I'm letting my neurotic tendencies get the better of me. Again.
I was having an extremely evil bout of 'I'm huge, ugly and unlovable' that was exacerbated by finding out people are together that I didn't know were together making me the last single person at work and multiple run ins with friends in blissful new relationships at the mall during this ever so unfriendly to single people holiday. And I'm having money issues up to my ears. And my back fuckin hurts like hell as usual.

I was a mess. Well, I still am a mess but a bit less so. If that makes any sense at all.

In other news, my interview/working a shift for Tim from Pendragon went really really well. I'm pretty sure I'll be working for him next season. Part time, so I can still run around and dance with the BBF (if it exists next season) and make some money for gas or whatever. I feel a hell of a lot better about that whole situation now. And the best part is, he's buds with the surrounding pub and food booths so discounts/freebies galore there. And a good discount on his jewelry, which in my opinion is the best at faire anyway. I hear he can get a bit anal about stuff but if you get him a Guiness, he's cool. HA! Get the boss a beer and everything's great. Now I can go crazy with my costume and get away with it. And carry a camera and or cell phone around the streets and not get body parts cut off as punishment.
So worry not, Louise. I shall not become assimilated into the Bellas any time soon. Or at all.

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Thanks for the hugs guys. I felt so alone at work lately and didn't have time to go cry in a corner like I so desperately needed. Hence the 'I need a hug' post. I'm feeling a bit better now. Not being around the people that got me to that point made things easier to handle. I don't really want to talk about it in detail. It's stupid. Let's just say I'm letting my neurotic tendencies get the better of me. Again.
I was having an extremely evil bout of 'I'm huge, ugly and unlovable' that was exacerbated by finding out people are together that I didn't know were together making me the last single person at work and multiple run ins with friends in blissful new relationships at the mall during this ever so unfriendly to single people holiday. And I'm having money issues up to my ears. And my back fuckin hurts like hell as usual.

I was a mess. Well, I still am a mess but a bit less so. If that makes any sense at all.

In other news, my interview/working a shift for Tim from Pendragon went really really well. I'm pretty sure I'll be working for him next season. Part time, so I can still run around and dance with the BBF (if it exists next season) and make some money for gas or whatever. I feel a hell of a lot better about that whole situation now. And the best part is, he's buds with the surrounding pub and food booths so discounts/freebies galore there. And a good discount on his jewelry, which in my opinion is the best at faire anyway. I hear he can get a bit anal about stuff but if you get him a Guiness, he's cool. HA! Get the boss a beer and everything's great. Now I can go crazy with my costume and get away with it. And carry a camera and or cell phone around the streets and not get body parts cut off as punishment.
So worry not, Louise. I shall not become assimilated into the Bellas any time soon. Or at all.