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[learning2fly]

I'm probably not going to be online for a while, just to let everyone know.
My grandfather passed away in his sleep Wednesday night. Probably because of the pnemonia and heart problems. It's hard to say. Everyone is taking it really well, I guess because we had a lot of time to get ready for it. He was home with hospice care for a couple weeks. They took really good care of him. I was just with him on Saturday, going on grocery shopping runs and brining him homemade cookies. Now he's gone. I don't know what to think about it. I've had the luck to not have lost a lot of people yet. I'm still sort of in denial about it. When I leave here and go over to Grandma's in a little while it's going to hit me. I stayed with my parents all day yesterday and last night. It feels good to be home. Mom and I spent hours looking at old photos looking for some shots of Grandpa to add to a collage that's going up at the memorial service. It's so strange to see Grandpa in his heavier days, since in last year he's been nothing but skin and bones. He's always been so quiet. A Supportive and loving quiet presence. I'm going to miss him. I take my family for granted. I really do. I am so lucky to have such an amazing family. We have our issues and problems, but who doesn't. My parents, sister and both sets of Grandparents all live in the same town. That is so rare these days to have that. Now it's broken. My Grandfather left us and he's only 81. I don't know what to think. I feel this emptiness and regret mostly. I wish I had done more for him. Now all I can do is help my family as best I can. And that's exactly what I'm going to do. Sunday is going to be his memorial service (no open casket, he wanted to be cremated) and Monday there's going to be a military style 21 gun salute at the cemetary. His Navy days served in Hawaii have earned him a block in a special vault for veterans. I just learned he hates pineapple because he had to eat it so much while he was over there.
Well, I have to get going. Grandma needs me. Take care, everyone. Love to all.

Comments

[beckysioux.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear about your Grandpa.

You'll eventually move on, it'll take some time, but it will happen. You know you have me to turn to if you need anything.

I'll try and call you tonight to check up.

*Hugs* from across the internet.

[april-tehe.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry that your grandpa died
at least he isn't suffering anymore.
I hope that you and heather and family will be ok
lots of love,
April

[grn-eyd-monster.livejournal.com]

My condolences, sweetie.

[corenrind]

Oh, that's very sad. I always liked the way you talked about him, and how much you always wanted to help him. You make everyone's life better. I'm glad you can be with your family. Give them my wishes, and take care, love.

[weeona.livejournal.com]

:(

I'm soooo sorry to hear that.
Please HUG Hez for me and have her hug you.

I'm probably going to call ya'll tonight...
ugh.
So sorry.

*sends love*
Melissa

[fireflower123.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I've lost a lot of my family...and it never gets easy. Just take comfort from your families love and remember the time you had with him.

*hugs*

[dintalion.livejournal.com]

*hugs* its not easy to lose someone, but you're stronger than you think, I know you'll be alright, just give everything time and take it as it comes

[squelch84.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather! I know it's hard, I've been through a lot of loss in my life, so I can empathize. I know I don't really know you at all, but if you need anything, I'm around.
aim= squelch84 (which is my screen name everywhere)

[copacabanacece.livejournal.com]

My heart goes out to you, dear. I know you have the support of your family and many friends to help you when you need them, but know that I'm here for you too!

[adf-carfax.livejournal.com]

We're both so sorry..we're both here to offer you all the love and support we can..may he rest in peace..
Love,
Liz & Tim.