nothing's gonna change my world

[learning2fly]

Thank GOD spring starts tomorrow. I've had enough of this endless, awful winter. 
It's getting to me, this winter funk. It's my golden birthday a week from today and all I want to do is hide under the bed. I feel like a big fat blob right now. I haven't had the energy, time or motivation to exercise in over a week. I'm getting married in 80 days and haven't made any progress towards the body I want to walk down the aisle in. Hell, I've been trying for that body my whole fucking life and have failed every time. I'm so tired of being overweight I could scream. It doesn't matter what I do, I'm stuck with these doughy arms and chubby face and thick waist. Fuckin a. 
 

 

Comments

[tugena13.livejournal.com]

really, you only have HALF your body to work on... i mean, no one's gonna see your legs under all that skirt, so work on your arms!

kidding... sort of... i know it's REALLY hard to lose weight and get in shape, so i wish you luck in that department. (if i can offer my two cents, though, i think you look great. don't torture yourself TOO much.)

lots of DDR? are you still doing weight watchers?

[learning2fly.livejournal.com]

yeah, you are very right about that one. All I need is a more toned upper back and arms and I'll be fairly happy.

Weight Watchers and I parted ways in January. I couldn't justify paying them monthly for no results. I lost 3 pounds in 4 months. THREE. I can't tell you how frustrating that is. I had so much hope in WW finally showing me what I'm doing wrong and helping me get down to the healthy weight range that the government thinks I should be. No dice.

I'm feeling better now, so don't worry. I get peaks and valleys of being ok with how I look and next day feeling like an absolute whale. It would help if I didn't work at a Physical Therapy clinic that has an entire wall of mirror for me to see myself in ill fitting dress pants and stupid tucked in polo shirts. Not a good look for me.

ok, this reply is long enough. I'm going to shut up now. :)

[tugena13.livejournal.com]

well, regardless of weight, if you wear things that are ill-fitting or not flattering, it's gonna make you look worse. that's true for ANYBODY.

(seriously, have you seen "how to look good naked" yet? highly recommended!)

[learning2fly.livejournal.com]

I have seen that show! I like it a lot, I just wish I could be on it so someone with a big budget and lots of hookups in the fashion industry to find me things that fit and that are free.
I could look fabulous if someone else dressed me.

[tugena13.livejournal.com]

i know, right? it's easy to look fabulous if someone else is picking up the tab.