nothing's gonna change my world

[learning2fly]

Thank GOD spring starts tomorrow. I've had enough of this endless, awful winter. 
It's getting to me, this winter funk. It's my golden birthday a week from today and all I want to do is hide under the bed. I feel like a big fat blob right now. I haven't had the energy, time or motivation to exercise in over a week. I'm getting married in 80 days and haven't made any progress towards the body I want to walk down the aisle in. Hell, I've been trying for that body my whole fucking life and have failed every time. I'm so tired of being overweight I could scream. It doesn't matter what I do, I'm stuck with these doughy arms and chubby face and thick waist. Fuckin a. 
 

 

Comments

[truver.livejournal.com]

Right now I would kill to see soome green leaves on the trees!

[learning2fly.livejournal.com]

yesssssssssssssss.

Looks like the sun is out today, before the winter storm watch kicks in, anyway.

[cre8ive414.livejournal.com]

missey, i feel for you. i think most women feel like that atleast now and again. usually i tell myself "atleast my body works." but right now i have one size 14 thigh and one size 16. stupid blood clot.

I was my heaviest on my wedding day. But, it didnt matter. I still had an awesome time. I I was happy i was getting married and around people i loved.

Hugs.

[learning2fly.livejournal.com]

what's up with the blood clot? Please tell me your docs are taking care of you (finally).

:(

thanks for the support.

[april-tehe.livejournal.com]

Body acceptance as the next option? I know, easier said then done, but here's to hoping for the both of us.

[learning2fly.livejournal.com]

yeah, good luck to you too. I've gotten a lot better about body acceptance since HS at least. Still have a long way to go though. :(

[ghostofgrace.livejournal.com]

OMG, right?!
You know what I spent yesterday and part of today doing? Grabbing my belly fat and shaking it and trying to figure out why it won't just go away.
Sorry I wasn't able to hang out today, I didn't figure I might after all.
But tomorrow is so on.
Then maybe soon hanging out outdoors fun time?

[learning2fly.livejournal.com]

Why are we so friggin MEAN to ourselves!?!? ugh!

I can't hang out today (Thursday) but tomorrow will be fine!
Tonight Chris and I are going to see my favorite folk singer in Milwaukee, leaving right from work to make it there on time.

Are you coming to Rocky on Friday too?

[ghostofgrace.livejournal.com]

I was planning on coming to Rocky this weekend, but it looks like it's a friends birthday in the burbs, so I might be out there. And then the burlesque show on saturday. But, if I don't make it to the burbs, I'll be there on Friday.

Have fun at your show!
=D

[tugena13.livejournal.com]

really, you only have HALF your body to work on... i mean, no one's gonna see your legs under all that skirt, so work on your arms!

kidding... sort of... i know it's REALLY hard to lose weight and get in shape, so i wish you luck in that department. (if i can offer my two cents, though, i think you look great. don't torture yourself TOO much.)

lots of DDR? are you still doing weight watchers?

[learning2fly.livejournal.com]

yeah, you are very right about that one. All I need is a more toned upper back and arms and I'll be fairly happy.

Weight Watchers and I parted ways in January. I couldn't justify paying them monthly for no results. I lost 3 pounds in 4 months. THREE. I can't tell you how frustrating that is. I had so much hope in WW finally showing me what I'm doing wrong and helping me get down to the healthy weight range that the government thinks I should be. No dice.

I'm feeling better now, so don't worry. I get peaks and valleys of being ok with how I look and next day feeling like an absolute whale. It would help if I didn't work at a Physical Therapy clinic that has an entire wall of mirror for me to see myself in ill fitting dress pants and stupid tucked in polo shirts. Not a good look for me.

ok, this reply is long enough. I'm going to shut up now. :)

[tugena13.livejournal.com]

well, regardless of weight, if you wear things that are ill-fitting or not flattering, it's gonna make you look worse. that's true for ANYBODY.

(seriously, have you seen "how to look good naked" yet? highly recommended!)

[learning2fly.livejournal.com]

I have seen that show! I like it a lot, I just wish I could be on it so someone with a big budget and lots of hookups in the fashion industry to find me things that fit and that are free.
I could look fabulous if someone else dressed me.

[tugena13.livejournal.com]

i know, right? it's easy to look fabulous if someone else is picking up the tab.