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learning2fly) wrote2008-03-19 09:58 pm
learning2fly) wrote2008-03-19 09:58 pm
nothing's gonna change my world
Thank GOD spring starts tomorrow. I've had enough of this endless, awful winter.
It's getting to me, this winter funk. It's my golden birthday a week from today and all I want to do is hide under the bed. I feel like a big fat blob right now. I haven't had the energy, time or motivation to exercise in over a week. I'm getting married in 80 days and haven't made any progress towards the body I want to walk down the aisle in. Hell, I've been trying for that body my whole fucking life and have failed every time. I'm so tired of being overweight I could scream. It doesn't matter what I do, I'm stuck with these doughy arms and chubby face and thick waist. Fuckin a.
It's getting to me, this winter funk. It's my golden birthday a week from today and all I want to do is hide under the bed. I feel like a big fat blob right now. I haven't had the energy, time or motivation to exercise in over a week. I'm getting married in 80 days and haven't made any progress towards the body I want to walk down the aisle in. Hell, I've been trying for that body my whole fucking life and have failed every time. I'm so tired of being overweight I could scream. It doesn't matter what I do, I'm stuck with these doughy arms and chubby face and thick waist. Fuckin a.
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Looks like the sun is out today, before the winter storm watch kicks in, anyway.
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I was my heaviest on my wedding day. But, it didnt matter. I still had an awesome time. I I was happy i was getting married and around people i loved.
Hugs.
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:(
thanks for the support.
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You know what I spent yesterday and part of today doing? Grabbing my belly fat and shaking it and trying to figure out why it won't just go away.
Sorry I wasn't able to hang out today, I didn't figure I might after all.
But tomorrow is so on.
Then maybe soon hanging out outdoors fun time?
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I can't hang out today (Thursday) but tomorrow will be fine!
Tonight Chris and I are going to see my favorite folk singer in Milwaukee, leaving right from work to make it there on time.
Are you coming to Rocky on Friday too?
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Have fun at your show!
=D
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kidding... sort of... i know it's REALLY hard to lose weight and get in shape, so i wish you luck in that department. (if i can offer my two cents, though, i think you look great. don't torture yourself TOO much.)
lots of DDR? are you still doing weight watchers?
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Weight Watchers and I parted ways in January. I couldn't justify paying them monthly for no results. I lost 3 pounds in 4 months. THREE. I can't tell you how frustrating that is. I had so much hope in WW finally showing me what I'm doing wrong and helping me get down to the healthy weight range that the government thinks I should be. No dice.
I'm feeling better now, so don't worry. I get peaks and valleys of being ok with how I look and next day feeling like an absolute whale. It would help if I didn't work at a Physical Therapy clinic that has an entire wall of mirror for me to see myself in ill fitting dress pants and stupid tucked in polo shirts. Not a good look for me.
ok, this reply is long enough. I'm going to shut up now. :)
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(seriously, have you seen "how to look good naked" yet? highly recommended!)
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I could look fabulous if someone else dressed me.
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